| word of advice...
being a ugly self centered bitch who is unable to self-reflect will get you no where in life...
-brittany |
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| summer will be here not a moment too soon...
i absolutely cannot stand living in the situation i am anymore...
i really have no desire to be friends with my roommate anymore... let alone live in the same house as her... she's become rude and abusive... and im at the end of my rope...
i just dont know how to deal with the almighty queen that has to have everything her own damn way... compromise is not in her vocabulary... she also believes that everyone is ripping her off in some way... or making her life so miserable and hard... she bitches about how much bills are, that i even ask her to pay me back for them... im so sick of her whining about money...
for instance... we had to discuss last night the stinking temperature in our house... she wants it set at 77 all the time... because shes a cheap ass... and because she is "cold natured"... we live in west texas... it is 90-95 degrees outside now... like hell im sitting in a house that is 77 degrees... when i said that im not going to burn up in my house... or wake up in the middle of the night all sweaty from the heat she told me she refused to put on a long sleeve t-shirt if it was cold and that if i was hot i needed to sleep with my fan on... (fans make my allergies go nuts)... and when i told her that she said then take an allergie pill... hum...which is harder...putting on another shirt or sleeping with a fan, taking pills and wearing no clothes..... if she's cold she can move her bed out from under a vent and put on a sweater...
she was insulting too... she said to me "im sorry im not on the phone with my mom and dad 24-7 asking for money"...
i have a budget... in fact it's smaller than hers... and my parents pay part of her rent...
my parents are furious that my roommate is being such a bitch to me... so much so that my mom... who is super nice... told me on the phone today if she complains or is rude about money/rent/living again you turn to her and say...
"im sorry... it's not my fault that my parents arnt divorced, have been married for almost 30 years, that they have good jobs, and have been financially responsible by starting to save for mine and my brothers college before we were born..."
i was like... wow mom... i cant say that to her...
the point is my situation is different than hers... but that doesnt mean she has a right to complain and be a bitch... life isnt fair... and i know thats easy for me to say when i obviously am blessed... but people grow up with different situations and different things... thats just how it is... you cant blame someone for their blessings...
anyway... after this semester i dont even have to talk to her... (thank goodness)... she's just not nice to be around and really makes me feel badly when i have to interact with her... i dont need or want toxic people like that in my life...
-brittany
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| p.s. on a good note...
i've had 100 spectacular days with the most wonderful boy of all time... and all i can wish for is 100 more...
-brittany |
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| okay... so i think that i should talk about the last two posts...
i dont like living in texas... but im kinda stuck being here... *sad face*
ive been applying to OU and their art school...
it's been the longest mess of a process... the art department there, while helpful, didnt ever have the right information for me ever... i went to three portfolio reviews, the last i got a call the day before saying i needed to be there (and they told me to bring the wrong stuff on top of that)... in the last interview the vis. comm. faculty member that was giving it to me admitted that he knew nothing about ACU but told me that he was sure that it would take me 3 more years to graduate because he was sure i hadnt learned what i was supposed to by this point (mind you he never saw my design portfolio because i was told to bring the art one... and he didnt even know where abilene was...) he then proceeded to talk down to me as if i was a small child and told me that it probably was in my best interest to move to norman, be in school for three more years and get a "better education and not risk getting a crappy job because none of those christian schools ever produce any quality."
basically everything you might expect and feared about a large state university was shown to me...
it was disappointing because he obviously was being discriminatory toward a transfer student and someone he knew was coming from a christian university... and i was yanked around so much concerning the process because NO ONE ever knew what the hell they were talking about...
so im staying in abilene... *bleck*
all i want is to be back... close to my friends... and family... and not anywhere near this place called abilene... but apparently it will be another year...
-brittany |
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| why can't i be where i want to be when i want to be there?
texas sucks... texas sucks the most ass of anything...
-brittany |
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